I have actually needed to post for two days, but I am trying to be good and follow all my doctors orders :)
I had a OB appt on thursday morning. Things were not going my way from the get-go when my blood pressure was slightly high. Darn. Then when Julia (my OB) came into the room the first thing she said was that my Endocrinologist had faxed her 3 reports in two weeks about his concerns over my fasting sugars. She informed me that she very rarely gets any reports from Endocrin on her patients once she sends them. She told me she can't help me there, but just to follow what the doctor says. She knows I am, so it was more of a obligation to tell me than anything. After she did an ultrasound and found the baby to be doing great, measuring right on track, we talked about some possibilities of what might be going on. I have had some recent sudden swelling going on, and with that and my blood pressure slightly raised now, there is a concern for PIH, Pre-eclampsia... ect developing. Since I had it with Trevor, started to when I delivered Josh, the risk is quite high. So I have to take my blood pressure twice daily and if I have any sudden bad headaches hit or am feeling particularly crappy I also have to take it and if it's more than 140/90 I am heading to the hospital. Then I had a NST done to see how many contractions I had in an hour. I had too many for her to be comfortable with. So she started me on some meds to stop contractions, put me on semi bed rest until monday and we will see if that helps. If it does, I will just go on scheduled resting for the remainder of the pregnancy and take meds. If not... we will increase/change meds and I will have to go on more strict bed rest for the remaining of the pregnancy. So obviously I hope for the first option. I am really glad to hear that Kaitlyn is doing well though and isn't too big or two small. Since I am only 23w 5 days.... it is not a good sign.
I have tried my hardest to follow what she says and I think considering I have three active children, one requiring alot of support, I am doing alright. It's just frustrating. I look at all the pregnant women I know and I just wonder why I can't just have a complication-free pregnancy.
As I have been thinking the last couple weeks and stressing a bit over how this is all going to work out, I have to share something with you. When I found out I was pregnant, I was worried, stressed and not very excited right at first. Now... most people would think it was because we had not planned on any more kids, we had gotten rid of all our baby things, Josh requires alot of time, or how would we do it all. Let me tell you all of that was furthest from the truth. My worry was about how I was going to survive being pregnant with the problems I always have and keep my family life together. I was worried about whether I would have preterm labor problems and if I would deliver another preemie that would spend the first days of it's life in the NICU hooked up to tubes and wires. I worried about having a micro-preemie that would spend months in the hospital and problems the rest of it's life. I just wonder if I can handle that. At this point... not having baby stuff, not planning on having any more kids, not being ready financially feels like a something very minor to me. I know that Heavenly Father will take care of us and somehow all of that will fall into place. And it has. I have to thank everyone who has given us things for Kaitlyn. It has truly been a miracle how things have all came together for us. I am still really apprehensive about what the future holds and far as Kaitlyn and my health is concerned and I am trying to have the faith that everything will work out according to Heavenly Father's plan. Some days it's harder to remember that, but I am getting better.
So.. that is where we are with the pregnancy. I have not been on blogger or Facebook much lately so I feel so out of touch. I hope that after this weekend I can get more into the swing of things (safely) and be able to connect with everyone. Here's to hoping!
Happy Easter! (a little late)
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